Today was a hard day in Kindergarten. To spare a lot of the details, I had a parent tell me that their child would never learn in my classroom no matter what I did. She told me she knows my type of teaching style and he will never learn in my class, and that I was setting him up for failure. She said this in a meeting with administrators, and various specialists. I am one of the first people to tell anyone that I do not know everything and I am open to feedback on my teaching. Yet, she was putting down my "style of teaching"- or the Chesapeake literacy program- which is something out of my control. I just sat there and took it until my administrator stopped her. I have such a wonderful bunch of co-workers that encouraged me, supported me and affirmed my abilities.
After school, I went to the gym to burn off some frustration and to sort out some thoughts. I started thinking about what I find my worth in. Is my worth in being a good teacher, having people like me and appreciate me, being kind, having it all together, being a good wife/ friend, having a comfortable paycheck, being fit and healthy? These things can get taken away in a second, even when you don't do anything to loose them. Why is our worth in all these non-permanent things? My worth needs to be in the fact that I am a daughter of the Lord and that alone.
Phil 3:8- Indeed, I count everything as a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ my Lord".
I need to be a good teacher and a hard worker, yet my worth is not found in that alone. When I fail, or disappoint, there is someone greater that myself that loves and cherishes me completely.