Wednesday, December 4, 2013

25 Weeks

This week has been a difficult week.  As I reflect on this week, starting with Thanksgiving day, puts some of the parenting struggles we have faced into perspective.

Hatley-Grace is growing and changing, her schedule this week was just out of sorts.  She was having trouble falling asleep for every nap and bedtime.  We have been letting her cry it out since she was very young, yet this was just persistent crying/painful screaming.  I'm still not entirely sure of the cause.

Friday, we decided that maybe she was hungry and ready for solids.  So, I researched everything about starting solids.  Marty ran to Walmart to get some avocados and Munchkin soft tipped infant spoons, and we gave HG her first taste of food on Saturday morning.

She tolerated it, and probably only swallowed a 1/2 tsp.  It was so fun having her at the table for her breakfast, and watching her experience something totally new!

The next couple days, HG continued skipping naps, only wanting to be held, and only sleeping in our arms.

Sunday night she was up until 1am, screaming.  This was our first experience with her acting like this.  Even as an infant, she always went to sleep easily.  She was also very congested and was coughing.  Next thought was that she was sick and/ or teething.  So we got all sorts of things to help with both of these.  I stopped feeding her solids after Sunday because of the congestion and I didn't want her to associate eating solids with feeling bad.
 We propped up her mattress to help with the congestion, and she slid down and rotated all the way to the side and slept with her head jammed against the bumper...we laughed a lot about this :)
Overall, I think our little girl is on the mend.  Today has been a much better day, even though last night she didn't go to sleep until about 9.  Maybe she is starting to finally have some opinions of her own, and she doesn't want to sleep and miss out on the fun.  Maybe she had a cold.  Maybe she is teething. Maybe it is a little combination of it all.  
I am continuing to learn that I am not in control.  I am not defined by whether my baby is on a perfect schedule, and always pleasant to be around.  My identity is only in Christ, and not in my parenting skills.  HG will always continue to grow and change, and each new thing feels so scary and unfamiliar to me.  I definitely had to slow down and just "be" this week with HG, and I treasure all the cuddles and snuggles that we were able to share as a result.   
After a 3 hour nap in her bunny a few days ago.  The only nap of the day, but it was a good one. 

How could you not want to cuddle these sweet cheeks all day long :)

1 comment:

Ashley said...

The unknown is the hardest! I hated seeing Luke in pain and always blamed his fussiness from 4 months and beyond to teething. Ha! But It's so hard to see our babies in pain! Hope your little lady is feeling better by now :)